Write me a fairytale

Write me a fairytale, where I could be the one.
where life comes with a manual, easily fix and done.
I could understand how I'm wired, even from day one.
I could put myself together, its simple and its fun.
I could go on adventures on magical starry night,
worries and burdens are way out of my sight,
we've never met, and they never exist in my life.
Step by step, I obediently follow my path.
When I'm feeling unsure, I could flip pages and check my future.
WHO? WHEN? WHY? WHAT? HOW? will all be answered.
A bright future is destined, a prince charming awaiting...

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Looooooong time no blog....
Thingssss happened....I'm having a confusing feeling now: One one hand, i feel good coz, i know i'm growing in love that i've never felt before, especially love for my mom and the Lord, oh.....i can't keep my mind away from the Lord~....i just want intimate time being with him....on the other hand, for some reasons, i'm feeling down....i feel the world is a cruel place to be in, suddenly i feel everyone around me is acting very fake....not so sure which mask are they wearing, and confused with which mask i should put on.....or i'll just put on none- stunt. Sometimes i just want to scream out madly, but if my situation is better than other people, do I have the right to do so? Do i pass the 'sad-enough-situation-to-scream' test? Everyone knows 'trust' is a hard thing to build, and I especially wasn't borned with it.....well i'm learning to trust now, but who should I start with? I know i can definitely trust God, but scanning through the people around me........none.
Sometimes i feel the world is better off without me, since i dont mean anything to anyone, and i'm not good at anything....but its such a watse to end my life here n now because people are still going to hell i can still do something for the Lord.....and perhaps i can inherit some joy from the Lord while doing it...Does these comprehend with the verse 'pick up the cross , lay down your life' in the bible ? As in sort commit suicide to your life now, and turn fully towards God......? Well if it's so, why dont i feel joyful inside? Hope I can get the answer in the future....

Awake

if only I could sing to you,

with a grateful heart everyday.

I'll lift my voice to worship you,

and here I come, in my own way.

and I know that

only you can touch my heart,

I wish to be this way forever

so keep me awake to be in your presence,

so I can see you face to face

I can't live a day without you

and I want you close to me today.

You're beautiful beyond description,

the world outside, begins to fade

you're my only inspiration

I want you here to lead the way

A small cry

What is actually working smart? a lot of time, when i actually think of smart and effective ways to get to the end...i ended up circling a big round and get moderate result....not everyone can have the skill of working smart. Its like you go almost a diameter of the mountain,but you are only half way up...while other people just hike straight up through the radius. Worse, sometimes staring at the limited result that you gain, looking up at where others landed;looking back at long path u've gone through......somehow all these hurt...to some extent...

I have to admit that wasn't my best time

all i felt, was to run into HIM and cry

I try to let it out by the worship of sacrifice,

but before I realise,

I was laughing in HIS presence...I don't know why.

HE gave me peace....may HE guide me in the rest of my works and more important, my life.

Something to share

I heard this phrase before, and it came back to me again today,it goes like this :'' no one ever knock at death's door thinking "I wish I've spend more time working"." It slap me quite hard on the face... for those who knows me, i used to spend 12hours studying for exam during my secondary years, and I could spend more than that working on my assignments at home,pure melancholic workaholic. Is it something to be proud of? or rather its quite a shame.
Anyway,despite the answers, I know its an imbalance lifestyle, and I'm trying hard to make an adjustment in it. I found myself less tension / worry towards certain things than i was before. I've been involving in more other activities,spending more time with people.Which is not a bad sign,and I know there's more that's need to be done.
Another thing that came to me today, some day in heaven , I'll be asked :"so what did you do on earth?". We're given the opportunity to "do" the ''answers'' for the questions.
PS:while I was worshipping today, I got this picture. I am in a car with JESUS, he's bringing me somewhere. When we reached, there's this hut/, and there's a BIG , HUGE house or mansion...unbelievably big n nice.....Then JESUS said:"get back into the car, that's just the guard house." conclusion: Heaven is WAY beyond our imagination. Don't ask me why, i didn't make this story up.

Rose

2nd wine on board! as u can see, its almost like rose color, that's why its call "rose" (ro-se). The founder-Robert Mondavi founded Woodbridge Winery in 1979 to make fine wine for everyday enjoyment.Rose captures the bright strawberry and crisp, ripe apple flavours with light, natural sweetness. It contain 12% alcohol. Its a product of USA,California.Its under Premium wine. Compare to Buena Vista, this is a much more expensive wine....

For me, i think it taste a bit sweet & sourish, alcohol taste is not that strong, and its very smooth....its a pleasant drink...cheers people :)

Buena Vista

"For beginners in wine-field-knowledge,take note of the wine you've drank or tasted, and write down your opinion. Open the wine bottle and let it breathe for a while,then drink and take note after 15mins and 30 mins the wine is opened, some might taste different....."

I always thought that its quite cool to have knowledge about liqueur ,its such a wide field of knowledge.Okay, well...after listening to that simple advice that i heard from the wine-warehouse-sale,i'll give it a try then...my first wine after hearing that is "Buena Vista-Merlot". The 1st day, i found it quite strong and yet, not that tasty, doesn't smells very nice(but strong too),and its not very smooth. 2nd day was much smoother than the first day, tasted lighter (i wonder if its the "chill" that make the different...now, its d third day i'm drinking it, much smoother as well(for me,easier to drink and swallow....Its not a very expensive wine, its about $16 to $20,which is about RM30++ to RM 60++.

This wine contains 12.5% alcohol,was founded in 1857 by Count Agoston Haraszhty, Buena Vista is widely considered to be the birthplace of California wine. With his vision and persistence for ultimate quality,Haraszthy, known today as the father of California viticulture, firmly established the destiny of the California wine industry.

That's a short & simple intro about the wine, now i shall enjoy it slowly....cheers :)